God is moving right now. In fact he always is. But let me more specific, he is moving me. I'm processing what each step looks like, and thru out it all, I've truly recognized his grace in him making me more like him. I'll be super honest, I keep telling God I'm tracking, out of my commitment to follow. But I'm at a lose for words, I don't see what He's doing here. There are so many emotions to look beyond, and to really see what response I give when I'm completely empty handed. In our lives, there is a lot we can control, but its at those moments when we loose control that we are emotional wrecks, we find confusion, and we respond to our uneasy circumstances. But at what point will I really praise God and be completely content when things are difficult or even the way we think it should not be. I'm guilty of not being content often. So here I am, and I don't know what is next, I know what I've prayed for to be next, and I know I want to be fully engaged in student ministry. Although I am at a place where I have no more control, I'm completely reliant on God's provision. And yes it's a scary place to be because I want to know whats next, I want to know that I'm being all I can be in Christ. I say that when we make decisions it's not spinning the world and seeing where our finger stops like when we were kids, or like playing mash. But it's taking our experiences, passions,& where God is working in turn to walk towards that. I'm recognizing so much about me in regards to being so empty handed, and I understand more what it means for God to take it all. I hope this encourages you. I hope this answers questions about where I'm at. I am so thankful for those who have prayed for me, and encouraged me along the way. One step I know I am taking is obtaining my masters degree in human services, specified with marriage and family. Why? I love students, namely girls, and alongside of that goes ministry with their parents, helping equip them to encourage their teenagers to develop their own relationship with Jesus. I especially have a place in my heart for single moms/parents and teenager relationship, because that was part of my story. Whether a troubled teenager or a fully equipped teenager, everyone of us have a need. Alot of our decisions& reactions come from our relationships or lack of with our parents/guardians. So to God be glory in all of this. I'm truly breathing his grace!!
Col 1:26-27!!
Ash